Poem: "Losing Andy - Thirteen Fragments"
What things really cost
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We weren’t dependent on you
For happiness
Yet you were interwoven
Into every
Happiness we knew
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I remember
When it was new
I wish it was new again
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I saw it all coming except
The silence and darkness of
The empty kitchen before dawn
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Looking in your eyes I saw
You were complete in yourself
This I cannot say of myself
These desolate days
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Time was something to fill
Now it’s something to kill
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The world took on a different aspect
Sharper, clearer,
Lonelier
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Something is lost and
Something is gained
Which sounds better
Than it actually is
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No emojis for this
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You were the substance
Filling in all the cracks and lacunae
Making secure the foundation
Of our home
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I’m living in a stranger’s house
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That’s how it went down
And that’s how it’s going to be
Nobody
I mean nobody ever
Thinks they got it right
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I want to believe the doctor
Who said we did everything we
Could for you
I want to believe
I really do
M. Bogen
October 2024
Mitch, this is a stellar work and no less than he deserved. You nailed it, and Pete agrees wholeheartedly.
ReplyDeleteDeborah xo
Thanks, Deborah! Initially, I thought I would use this as the raw material for a more condensed and coherent poem, but then decided that the fragments were truer to the experience of grief.
ReplyDeleteI absolutely agree. Grief comes in fragments, ragged fragments, in my experience.
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